Wednesday, November 4, 2009

The most dreaded question in all of Knittingdom

I wore my Ditto cardigan for the first time today. Although I finished it this summer, it's finally cool enough here to warrant a sweater. I've been waiting for the right day - and frankly for the courage - to wear my creation out into the world.

I watched people's eyes. Did they notice the neckline, which could really use another couple of inches? Or the little space on the front band that longs for an extra sewing stitch? Or that the cardigan is really big on me, mostly because my gauge was off?

To put it another way, I walked around all day waiting for the most dreaded question in all of Knittingdom: "Did you make your sweater?"

I am happy, proud, and relieved to report that no one ever asked. In fact, like most 50-year-old, fat white women in the suburbs, I went completely unnoticed. Which makes me wonder: when and how did I grow so old that people - especially men - stopped looking at me? When did I become invisible? And is this a good thing or a bad one?

Probably both. Frankly, it's a relief to go out without mascara. I don't feel the need to be beautiful all the time - or even most of the time. I can just be me, take it or leave it. Whatever. I'm 50. I have nothing to prove. It's all down hill from here. And most of the time, that's okay by me.

This all leads me to one of my favorite sayings: Don't worry about what people think of you because most of the time they don't. Ain't it the truth?! I grew up in a family of narcissists - you'd think I'd already know this, but sometimes I forget. No one's worried about me but me.

The knitting corollary? Don't worry about what people think of your creations because usually they don't.

Except on Ravelry. And my blog. So thank you for reading and paying attention to my handmade sweaters. :-)

6 comments:

  1. I have to put on makeup just to go to the market! I feel funny without it.

    "Did you make your sweater?" ..I never thought of it asked in that way which interprets it as "It looks folksy and home-made". Now I am going to be wondering when people ask LOL!
    "Did you make THAT??!!(all the while thinking "I'd never get caught dead in it").I dare say that the question would be asked in that manner by a non-knitter. A fellow knitter would be honest..compliment, appreciate, and then add helpful honest criticism too.
    That being said, I wish I could give some honest criticism to those designers and knitters of
    SEVERLY asymmetrical knitted (ahem) garments I see on the internet for download or sale.
    Not for the ample , surely, seeing that they call attention to oneself.
    t_a

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  2. lmao, Teresa... the most dreaded designation in all of Teresa Knittingdom is ASYMMETRICAL! Not that I disagree, as you know!

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  3. My mother warned my that I was getting to the age when I would become invisible. And here I am. An obese 48 year old is just not visible to the world. But sometimes, that's a good thing! I am tempted to try Jill Moreno's "Folly". Let's see if they see me in that!

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  4. Carlin, I see you! And in Folly you'd definitely be noticed. If you make that sweater, please send me pictures. I'd love to see. Thanks for reading my blog!

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  5. And I see you, Julie, so you're not really invisible at all :) --skeller on Rav

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  6. Thanks, Skeller... I see you, too. :-)

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